Haizzzzzzzzz so damm fed up man.

Like the whole freeking day i've been like teaching my bro how to do his freaking homework. He got piles and piles of homework to do and i am the one who is stress about his homework.

Like $*%& lah he like got 1 month to do his homework and he decide to do it 2 days before school reopen. Remind mi of mi but i did my homework on my own, he need some one sit beside him holding a cane to persuade him to to his work. He like drain my whole energy today. How the ^$@! am i going to mug for Bio without energy.

He like damm lucky lah. when i was his age i was already very independent liao. Because when i was his age my mum gave birth to him. Ever since he came to this world everthing is like about him. Wat ever the $*^! he want he will get. Do you know how freaking irritating it is. For mi Everything i want i have to work hard to get it and when i got wat i have been working hard to get it either end up spoiled because he spoil it or i have to give it to him because my mom say " I am his brother and i just have to loose out to him". Not that i dun 1 to give it to him but do you know how freaking hard i work or save just to have that certain item.

Some time i just think that my mum care more about him den she care about mi And my dad care more about my sis den about mi. (care not love. My parents distibute love evenly)

It does not matter if they dun buy for mi stuff or miss all of my award ceremony when i was in secondary school. All i ask is for them to stop picking on mi. Its like every thing i do is not enough to make them proud. Every single day i have to suffer them compare mi to my sis and cousin. So wat if they smarter den mi and so wat if they are better den mi.

Mayb this is the way they motivate mi. If this is the way they motivate mi i have to say it has been working but if this is the way they are going to motivate mi it is not going to work for the rest of my life. I realise i have been making people happy my whole life. I would do anything to make a person happy but sometimes when i do this things i end up in trouble, feeling like shit or feeling like a slave

Mayb its time i do things for myself but after years of making people happy i do not know wat i want for myself. .

Now i dunno who i am fed up with, my bro, my parents or my useless self

Haizzzzzzzz

IDIOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!